Constantly feeling worthless and doubtful

This is an anonymous story collected from the public as part of the Human Archive Project

Many people see me as this huge bubbly happy giant, that is flamboyant, loud, confident and approachable but not many knows that because of my past relationship, scarred me and I've became this timid, melancholic man who doesn't know what love is, afraid of building anything new, constantly feeling worthless and doubtful that I will ever meet anyone who will genuinely like me.